The other day my friend spoke these words, and the way in which he said them left an indelible mark on me. Our conversation was in the context of his life, and what he was learning about himself in his own therapy. But the applications were endless. Immediately my mind was flooded with images regarding all the stuff I spend my time doing. Some of it great. Some of it good. Some of it bad. Some of it pointless. And the point Matt was making, was nothing novel. In fact, it is a conjecture that has been made since the beginning of human life. Every man, woman, and child that has ever lived feels the heavy sentiment present in the statement. Philosophers and the uneducated; Royalty and peasants alike; we all know this simple truth, “We don’t have a lot of time.” James, the brother of Jesus, said it this way, “Your life is a vapor. It appears for a little while and then vanishes away.”
As a therapist, death anxiety pervades every story I hear. As a father and husband, death anxiety is embedded in my story. Even as believers in Jesus, we all bear the weight of being cast from Eden. The fruit of the tree of Life we shall not taste any longer. Yes, our Lord has overcome death, but we still must die. So, what will we do with the time we have left?
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It has been said that the physicality of death destroys a man, but the idea of death saves him. Meaning, once we realize our time is short, and that we are physically going to die, then, and only then, do we have the opportunity to fully embrace the meaning of our existence. We have been created for a purpose, and living in the awareness that the clock on life is ticking, propels us toward that purpose. But if we live in the denial of being East of Eden – if we live in denial of our own death, then we are restricting the impact we can make while we yet live.
Saint Augustine wrote, “It is only in the face of death that man’s self is born.” When Adam and Eve ate from the tree of knowledge, they gained the awareness of good and evil. Their entire life paradigm shifted beneath them as they hid in the thickets, doing their best to avoid their Creator. As a result, God sent them out of the garden, and death entered the picture of humanity. As Augustine said, when we begin to understand our terminal diagnosis, we begin to understand who God has created us to be, and where our part lands in His Story. The question then becomes, “Will we choose to live in the awareness of our fatal disease, or will we stick our head in the proverbial sand?”
Living in this awareness may seem like a complicated issue for Christians. We are taught, with good intentions I believe, to long for the Sabbath rest that is Heaven. But where we go wrong lies in our lazy application of this truth. The Sabbath rest implies a solid workweek. Instead, we routinely use our ticket into heaven as a way of checking out of the present day’s duties. C. S. Lewis said it this way, “Read history and you will find the Christians who did the most for the present world were those who thought the most of the next.”
Yet, all too often through our actions, and sometimes our words, we communicate, “I’ve punched my ticket, so I don’t need to worry about the rest of this mess.” Instead of living a life of intentionality and purpose for the sake of others, we become focused on getting ourselves ahead. Our careers or families centralize our focus regarding the way we pass the time, and our insatiable desire to achieve and amass material possessions becomes a way of life meant to divert our attention from the ticking clock.
But a full understanding of the doctrine of salvation disallows such a shallow view of Christ’s work in our lives. Our salvation is not just about us getting into heaven. Our salvation also comes as we are allowed to participate in God’s work in reconciling the entire world. The gift of grace, once truly accepted, compels the receiver to replicate the gift. To put it in the context of my favorite passage in Scripture, our salvation also comes with the present beauty inherent in bringing Revelation 21 to a broken world. As we wait, we are meant to wipe away tears. As we wait, we are meant to mourn with the brokenhearted. As we wait, we are meant to bring the surprisingly scandalous story of Jesus to every person we encounter.
Revelation 21: 3-4
‘Look! The residence of God is among human beings. He will live among them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death will not exist any more…’
But we don’t do these things, do we? Instead we just sit at the bus stop waiting for our ride into eternal comfort. Our interest is not in making sure others don’t miss the bus. Our interest is in making sure we get our seat. Heidegger calls this, “living in a state of forgetfulness of being.” As followers of Christ we call it ignoring the fact that we are marching toward our last chance at living a purposeful life in this part of God’s story. When we forget our place in the story, our tendency is to forget the story altogether.
The opposite, as Heidegger said, would be to live in the state of “mindfulness of being” – to be authentic about who you are, and who God has created you to be. Concerning this idea, Yalom wrote, “Death is the condition that makes it possible for us to live life in an authentic fashion.” As we take up the task of coauthoring our lives with God, we quickly realize we only have so many pages left to write on. Right away every scene and every storyline becomes increasingly important.
So, what have you done with the fact that one-day you will die?
Are you allowing this awareness to propel you to love God and love others with an ever-increasing passion and energy, or do you maneuver your life away from this reality? Have you committed your life to being a workaholic? Are you amassing riches and treasures that will wither like the grass, in an attempt to conceal the debt you owe as a result of your sin? Or has the idea of death saved you? Have you come face-to-face with the limited number of pages left in your story, and thus begun to journey toward the life God wants for you? Take up your pen, my friend, we don’t have much time.
September 26, 2011
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